In January, someone said "Goodbye" to me. The manner in which this was done did not give me a chance to return the "Goodbye" in kind. In the intervening months, I have tried given this friendship another chance. But Saturday, I was again shown the door in an abrupt manner.
I have given this matter a great deal of thought during the intervening months. Since I have been instructed to loose her contact information of all sorts I knew the only way I could have closure was to write a blog to say my "Goodbye". What to say? , that was the issue.
At first, because my feelings were hurt, I was tempted to spew all kinds of nasty, vile, evil, hateful insults and slurs. I was just gonna rip her a new one; hang all her dirty laundry out here on the Internet clothesline and let everybody who surfed by take a gander. Then sanity returned. And for a while apathy, or ennui, set in. "Just let it go, " I told my self. "Let sleeping dogs lie." But I need closure. I need to say farewell. And I mean Fare Well.
So, here it comes:
For the times when I desperately need your presence, and you came without a second's hesitation or thought for what you needed to be doing other than rescuing me, or supporting me in a time over almost overwhelming need, Thank you.
For the times of shared laughter and shared sorrow, Thank you.
For all the shared meals, especially the time we had to speed away from Beto's, Thank you.
For the times when you called and I showed up, you're welcome.
And now, I can let go. I can let go of the negativity, and the anger I've been holding onto.
I can let go of the distrust and the disgust.
I can honestly say, Fare Well.